Letters to Carol
by Carol Denise Mitchell

Letters to Carol was written to help the author face the past, confront abusers, and forge a path towards healing and recovery. It stands as a testament to Glenda Bixler’s accurate representation of it as a non-fiction memoir that unfolds the true-life story of a woman grappling with the haunting memories of relentless abuse.

The genesis of the heart-wrenching journey traces back to the late 60s in an elementary school where the author was derogatorily dubbed "The Blob" by classmates. A home that should have been a sanctuary was instead a battleground, where ridicule was a constant companion, spearheaded by a mother who detached her from her real identity, diminishing her self-worth through scornful imitation.

The protective embrace of a beloved grandmother was tragically short-lived, leaving the author exposed to further abuse at the hands of a sibling. In a bid to escape the incessant torment, a retreat was forged within the confines of a bedroom closet, a haven where a fragmented sense of self began to take root. It was here that the dissociative identity disorder, also known as Multiple Personality Disorder, emerged as a coping mechanism, providing a means to navigate the daily onslaught of trauma.

By compartmentalizing the pain into different realms of the mind, a strategy for survival was formed, allowing for a level of tolerance to the cruelty endured daily. The alternate universe became a refuge, a place of solace to soothe the deep-seated anguish through self-hugging and promises of protection.

However, the road to recovery was fraught with challenges, including a terrifying encounter with homelessness. Yet, resilience prevailed, as the final personality emerged to weave the narrative that encapsulates the lived experiences. A profound realization dawned that forgiveness held the key to healing, the element capable of liberating her from the chains of past trauma.

In presenting Letters to Carol, the author brings forth a heartfelt narrative, a journey from darkness to light, showcasing the transformative power of facing one’s demons and finding redemption through forgiveness.