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Not only is unethical behavior and immorality problems, it appears that many youth don't even KNOW right from wrong anymore. They are confused and have lost their moral compass because they don't have anyone at home or in school guiding them or correcting them. I believe civilization is a process that is not instinctual but must be "taught". Teachers in school don't even correct children on their grammar anymore. They hear them talking like slaves and morons and just smirk and ignore it.

I'm certainly at the point of allowing myself to question my racial persuasion. I don't how to identify myself anymore. My loyalty to blackness is dissipating, mostly because there doesn't seem to be any cure for what ails the black condition in America, a disease characterized by the ignorance and self-destructiveness that disgusts me. I've never confronted this dilemma before because I rejected the idea of a black person wanting to be white. I always found oreo types obnoxious and pathetic. Now I know it's possible to circumvent the negative stereotypes of both blackness and whiteness, and that it is all about one's frame of mind. Currently, I just want to be me, to embrace what I relate to in both races. From what I know of my ancestry, I have the bloodlines to legitimately do this. Even my appearance is hybrid. I have fair skin but my hair is not straight and my features not particularly keen. I am also "bilingual", able to speak in both the black and white syntax. But I remain in the limbo of a society that categorizes people by entrenched standards. Because I am in retreat, however, this ambivalence is no big deal. Were I young and still out there in the mix, what would I do? This I know for sure; I would never exorcise my black soul.