Stream of Consciousness

[aka Contrarian]

Suddenly I've drifted into a crazy zone. I have nothing but time on my hands, and I live around the clock, only sleeping when I'm sleepy, only eating when I'm hungry, suspended in limbo.

My Samsung smart phone is my ever present companion and it's like there's a connection  between my fingers and its keyboard and I have a compulsion to just write long dissertations or crazy vignettes, my words and thoughts feeding on each other like i'm  overtaken by a rogue AI entity that compels me to write about things I didn't know I knew, - like my subconcious mind is on overdrive. Like now.

Fortunately, I'm not immobile nor in dire health. But I do tire easily, and like to curl up on my recliner, where i still set aside time to do patternless crossword puzzles that seem to work themselves and play Bridge on line with computerized robots - who seem to becoming more human by the day... 

Family relationships are normal, but there's this other world that I drift in and out of and when I sleep I have vivid dreams about all those who have gone ahead.  In a recent one  it seemed like my husband had hooked up with an old girlfriend. Why do I find this funny??? 

Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining, not lonely nor depressed, just curious about this weird state I'm caught up in.

 

I still sometimes sneak out at night and look up at the stars...

Now i'm about to gear up for my daily walk up and down the driveway. Stay tuned,  - or tune out if you have better things to do than read the ramblings  of a crazy ol lady.

 

Hoping some winning POWERBALLnumbers will pop into my head. Nothing like a billion dollars to calm your impulses.

 

 

 

[aka Contrarian]

It's like the above picture had a mind of its own and expanded into a huge image, coupled with  another photo that latched on to it  and which I deleted

Strange.

 

[Delano]

I tore my ACL so I also have a  lot of time. Waste a lot if time, but I  read a book or a chart an hour or two and periodically. I have caught the eyes of strangers and say hello. Or people will ask me if I'm okay or how did i hurt my leg. Also meeting more people.

I think having time allows forces to pull you towards them. 

[aka Contrarian]

@DelanoIt helps if you are good company for yourself. 

The ol saw about "idle time being the playground of the devil" should probably be heeded, however.

[ProfD]

21 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

I have nothing but time on my hands, and I live around the clock...

IMO, you have reached the zenith of life.  We should all be so fortunate to get there.

 

21 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

Fortunately, I'm not immobile nor in dire health.

Relative good health is a bonus in the zenith of life.

 

21 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

Stay tuned,  - or tune out if you have better things to do than read the ramblings  of a crazy ol lady.

There is no shortage of posts that we express how much we enjoy your input here. 

 

I certainly look forward to and get a kick out of your ramblings.  Keep posting as long as time allows..

[Pioneer1]

Not sure what the blonde hair is all about but.......

 

On 9/3/2025 at 5:16 PM, aka Contrarian said:

In a recent one  it seemed like my husband had hooked up with an old girlfriend. Why do I find this funny??? 

Maybe you find it funny because of what you probably DID to that woman to prevent that from EVER happening, lol. 
 

[aka Contrarian]

4 hours ago, Pioneer1 said:

Not sure what the blonde hair is all about but.......

 

Maybe you find it funny because of what you probably DID to that woman to prevent that from EVER happening, lol. 
 

That's not blond hair. That's a gray wig to cover up my frizzy corn rows.

 

 And I'm a passive, non jealous woman who never engaged in cat fights over men. I can understand if my husband hooked up with an old flame since I'm taking so damned long to join him on the "other side".

[frankster]

Write your dream and hypnagogic or hypnopompic  visions in a dream diary....

When you come back to then days weeks or months later.....you will be pleasantly surprise...

To find many of then if not all.....very informative explanatory and predictive....jackpot lotto numbers

[Pioneer1]

8 minutes ago, frankster said:

Write your dream and hypnagogic or hypnopompic  visions in a dream diary....

When you come back to then days weeks or months later.....you will be pleasantly surprise...

To find many of then if not all.....very informative explanatory and predictive....jackpot lotto numbers

How many times have you hit the Lotto Jackpot (over $1,000,000) using this method?

[frankster]

4 hours ago, Pioneer1 said:

How many times have you hit the Lotto Jackpot (over $1,000,000) using this method?

never

[ProfD]

Lottery winners of a million dollars or more usually aren't going to admit it publicly.

 

On 9/6/2025 at 1:45 PM, aka Contrarian said:

That's not blond hair. That's a gray wig to cover up my frizzy corn rows.

Have you ever considered or cut your hair short to rock underneath your hats?

 

On 9/6/2025 at 1:45 PM, aka Contrarian said:

I can understand if my husband hooked up with an old flame since I'm taking so damned long to join him on the "other side".

 I'm still waiting for a family member or friend who has gone over to the other side to confirm that it exists so that I can get my sh8t together.

[aka Contrarian]

On 9/7/2025 at 7:34 PM, ProfD said:

Have you ever considered or cut your hair short to rock underneath your hats?

Nah. Since my once thick bushy hair has thinned out with age and I'm all about convenience, I resort to doing what all those false-eyelash, acryllic nail wearing black woman are doing nowadays: wearing huge afro wigs made of synthetic hair, or long  luxurious "baby hair" wigs made from hair imported from India, or braided extensions made from whatever the ones in the local Korean-owned beauty supply stores are made of. 

I dispense with all that glamour, however, and settle for styles that duplicate the ways I used to wear my hair which has turned completely gray. After my grand daughter does the cornrows, I'm good to go, although I don't do a lot of going nowadays which has a lot to do with the choices I make.

[ProfD]

15 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

...luxurious "baby hair" wigs...

That look cracks me up.

15 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

I dispense with all that glamour, however, and settle for styles that duplicate the ways I used to wear my hair which has turned completely gray. After my grand daughter does the cornrows, I'm good to go, although I don't do a lot of going nowadays which has a lot to do with the choices I make.

Understood.  Cornrows underneath the hat seems to be the next best thing to a cut. Simple is the way to good.

[aka Contrarian]

Btw, I don't wear the corn rows on public   They are just a way of keeping my real hair out of the way of my "artificial coiffs".

[ProfD]

47 minutes ago, aka Contrarian said:

Btw, I don't wear the corn rows on public   They are just a way of keeping my real hair out of the way of my "artificial coiffs".

I figured you weren't rocking the 'rows out in them streetz.

[aka Contrarian]

                 HAIR THEN

 

                  HAIR NOW

 

 

(What old ladies do when they have too much time on their hands.) 

              *************

No National Guard troops have shown up in Chicago yet.

Latest news reports a confrontation between 2 women in a black neighborhood ends with one shooting the other in the face, killing her.

Three-year-old playing with gun, accidently shoots and kills himself. 

 

And Life goes on... Or does it??

[Troy]

6 minutes ago, aka Contrarian said:

Latest news reports a confrontation between 2 women in a black neighborhood ends with one shooting the other in the face, killing her.

Three-year-old playing with gun, accidently shoots and kills himself. 

 

That is just terrible.  One reason I don't "the news" real life violence and tragedy is just so sad.  I simply cant image what I'd do if my 3-year-old shot herself with a gun laying around the house.  Who is that stupid and careless...

 

@aka Contrarian you look great with a mind to match! 

[ProfD]

2 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

What old ladies do when they have too much time on their hands.) 

Still looking great our beloved sista. 

 

2 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

No National Guard troops have shown up in Chicago yet.

I believe ICE is the 1st wave following by national guard.

2 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

Latest news reports a confrontation between 2 women in a black neighborhood ends with one shooting the other in the face, killing her.

Three-year-old playing with gun, accidently shoots and kills himself. 

 

And Life goes on... Or does it??

Life goes on for some folks and ends tragically for others.

[aka Contrarian]

9/11will soon be here. Maybe tomorrow we should all pause and observe a moment of silence for the dead end reached by Ubrachist in his ongoing search  to explain why  the Twin Towers collapsed.

[ProfD]

12 minutes ago, aka Contrarian said:

9/11will soon be here. Maybe tomorrow we should all pause and observe a moment of silence for the dead end reached by Ubrachist in his ongoing search  to explain why  the Twin Towers collapsed.

There will be some form of 9/11 commemoration tomorrow. 

 

They won't spend an iota of time explaining why the towers collapsed.

[Troy]

Sent to me by a New Yorker

[Pioneer1]

On 9/9/2025 at 12:01 PM, aka Contrarian said:

 

 

(What old ladies do when they have too much time on their hands.) 

 

Speaking of time ON their hands, who's hand is ON your shoulder?

Is it that same guy who you used to catch rides to the grocery store with before yall's falling out????
Fingernails look kinda long for a dude....lol.

[aka Contrarian]

On 9/10/2025 at 10:29 PM, Troy said:

Sent to me by a New Yorker

@TroyThat really is an eerie, yet beautiful image. Doesn't seem like it's been 24 years since the 911 disaster. 

My grandson sent me a clip of the gory on-the-scene shooting of Charlie Ritz's killing.  

I like your selection better.

[aka Contrarian]

News media is reporting the death of screen icon and heartthrob, Robert Redford. He was 89.

And, like me, he was born on August 18th. He's the second celeb born on this date to pass this year. Malcolm Jamal Warner was also born on August 18th.

Oh, well... 

 

              Rest in Peace, Bobby.

 

                   "THE WAY YOU WERE"

[Delano]

I feel that Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid was a love story about two men.

[ProfD]

1 hour ago, aka Contrarian said:

News media is reporting the death of screen icon and heartthrob, Robert Redford. He was 89.

When I heard the news this morning, I thought about how heartbroken you might be that an icon of your generation has left the rock.

 

[aka Contrarian]

4 hours ago, ProfD said:

When I heard the news this morning, I thought about how heartbroken you might be that an icon of your generation has left the rock.

 

 

Ummm, the death of an 89 year old man who lived  a long and productive life and died surrounded by loved ones is hardly a cause for me to be heartbroken.  Especially since I'm not a sentimental slob. 

C'est la vie. 

 

 

4 hours ago, Delano said:

I feel that Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid was a love story about two menn.

That was one school of thought about this film classic.

 

[Delano]

@aka Contrarian he lived made films and then created one of the most widely film festivals in the world. Plus he was Sonia Braga's lover.

 

The film clearly made am strong impression on him since he named the festival after his character.

[aka Contrarian]

@DelanoYes, no doubt about it,  Redford made his mark in many areas of the film industry as well being a philanthropic political Liberal. Someone said it's his life America should be celebratimg instead of the bigoted Charlie Kirk's. I agree! 

I was caught off guard by how many people who, like Prod D, thought about me when they heard of Redford's passing.  -and called me!

Yes, I was a fan of his but down through the years, for me his greatest claim to fame was always sharing a birthday with me! (Sorry, ProfD, for being so brusque with you. )

 

Btw, Delano, have you ever seen the movie "Broke Back Mountain"?

 

[ProfD]

12 minutes ago, aka Contrarian said:

(Sorry, ProfD, for being so brusque with you. )

No worries. My post was meant to be humorous because you mentioned him in another thread. Maybe I need better emoticons.

[Delano]

1 hour ago, aka Contrarian said:

Delano, have you ever seen the movie "Brokeback Mountain"?

Recalling their first sex scene. It didn't look like two men in love.

[aka Contrarian]

12 hours ago, Delano said:

Recalling their first sex scene. It didn't look like two men in love.

Well, -  they were 2 lonely, awkward cowboys in a tent on a moutain. I don't know what an  authentic scenario called for. The movie was based on a book, I believe.

[Delano]

It just had a different dynamic. There was an uneasiness between the two characters. I can't fully remember but i think one character , berated the other character for being gay. And both characters his it from their wives.

 

Whereas Butch and the Kid share a woman. Which is the sign where Paul Newman rides the bike to the song Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head.

2 hours ago, aka Contrarian said:

were 2 lonely, awkward cowboys in a tent on a moutain. I don't know what an  authentic scenario called for.

I guess that's the main difference. They are both married amd alone. Whereas Butch and the kid are loners together. Who can accept each others strengths and weaknesses.

[aka Contrarian]

I'd characterize the relationship between Butch and Sundance as more of a "Bro-mance". I didn't get the impression that they shared Robert Redford's girlfriend. 

 

In "Broke Back Mountain" the 2 guys both were later divorced by their wives. 

In real life, actor Jake Gyllenhaal did admit to being heartbroken over Heath Ledger's death from an overdose.